Flawless and Faultless

so guilty and tired
of people putting all their hopes on me
when in the end
i'm just gonna end up disappointing
and letting everyone down
as i always do

i wish that they would all just stop
thinking that i am infallible
some kind of genius brainbox
and stop expecting so much from me

i'm trying-
trying so hard
to fulfill other peoples dreams
and expectations
and trying to show them i'm happy
while i'm failing myself
my dreams, my hopes, my expectations

i'm already failing-
at school, home and life
trying not to fall into the depths of tartarus
but still everyone thinks
i'm flawless and faultless

i wish i could
stop letting myself down
in order to make others happy
i wish i could too
convince myself of the fact
that i am as unerring and perfect
as everyone falls for and believes